It all seems to be a lie .

No matter how hard I hide from the truth .
No matter how many good things I think of .
It all ends up being negative .
Trying not to see , trying not to hear .
But I'm not blind nor deaf .
When will this suffering end ?
It's like in front of me already .
I can hear it . I can see it .
But I'm still thinking, I'm seeing wrongly and hearing wrongly .
I try to ignore, but it's hunting my conscience .
I can't tahan already la!
It might be selfish to keep it for myself .

But I think I misjudged things . Sorry, it's my fault after all for not knowing .

Maths Test was a disaster .
I flunk it , I hope not .

ps. I want my friends .

psps. Those True ones :)